Saturday, June 30, 2007

Simple Pleasures

It's pretty hot in Taipei, and I figured I better get a new aikido gi (uniform; 道服). The cotton gi that I've been wearing is good for Japan in the winter, not Taipei in the summer.

I do a search* on the web for stores in Taipei that sell aikido gis, and on Thursday after class, I go with my friend Taka, a karate expert from Japan, to a shop near CKS Memorial. They have a low quality polyester gi at a relatively high price. I look around the store, and I realize that it's because they specialize in Chinese martial arts. I decide not to get it, and am disappointed--I have class on Friday night, and don't want to practice in my old, heavy cotton gi.

However, after some more research, I find out about another shop in Ximending (西門丁). On Friday, I go with my friend Chi. The owners happily welcome us, and after I tell them what I need, he pulls out a beautiful gi. It's thin and made of cotton, and not too expensive. I can't tell you how happy that I waited to get this gi, and that I'll have a gi for practice tonight.

I walk out of the store with my friend, beaming. I kick up my feet like they do in commercials in the States, expressing my utter joy and my new purchase.

Perhaps I'm happy because I love aikido and being comfortable while practicing. A simple pleasure. And perhaps because, once in a while, despite what Mick Jagger says, you sometimes do get what you want, even if it is as simple as a comfortable new gi.

*By the way, I just downloaded some cool software on the web so that I can more easily read Chinese websites. If you don't understand a character (let's just say, ahem, there are some I don't), you just put your mouse over it, and boom, the definition pops up. It's an add-0n to Mozilla Firefox, in case you are interested, and you can get it here: https://addons.mozilla.org/en-US/firefox/addon/3349.)

Introducing My Neighbors

Today, I get off the bus and head back home after aikido practice. I am walking up the stairs along the stream near my apartment. It's all green, the cicadas are chirping, and there are hundreds of small crickets jumping on the stairs, which are made of big stones and gray concrete with small pebbles in it.

As I approach the foot of the stairs, I spot a small, stray puppy. He's scroungy but still cute. He's playing a little game with the crickets. It's simple, he's trying to catch them, and if he does, he eats them. His eyes are full of play and joy.

He sees me and gets scared and walks up to another part of the walkway where he can catch more crickets.

This reminds me of a meeting with a praying mantis I had yesterday. She was walking on the wooden railing, on the deck in front of my apartment. Those praying mantis's, they sure have big eyes, and the way they move, they look more like lizards or aliens from Star Wars, than insects. She spots me and slowly alights on a branch of a bamboo plant, slowly climbing the leaves, up, up. She's is a beautiful creature. I am in awe as I have never seen a praying mantis in action.

I decide to leave her, maybe she is scared. I don't want her to be, so I go back to my room.

You know, I think my life can be measured by these moments with animals, insects, children, and old people. It's during these moments that I leave the world of achievement, comparing, money, love and "relationships", even my big dream.

It's during these moments that I get a glimpse of the essence of being alive.

Sunday, June 10, 2007

So What

"Do not fear mistakes. There are none."
Miles Davis


I'm in some bookstore and I hear an interesting version of Miles Davis's "So What", one of my favorite pieces of jazz ever. Something in me relaxes and I get into the groove of the music. To me, good jazz takes us to a place where we relax and access that swing.

It hits me, I realize the opposite of Chinese or Taiwanese culture is "So What"!

Sunday, June 03, 2007

The Sudden Jerk on the MRT Train

I get on the train today at the Taipei Zoo MRT Station. It's the terminal station, so there's always a train waiting, and always a free seat. Sometimes, the train is about to leave, but Taiwanese people rarely make a mad rush through the closing train doors, like a lot of Americans do. They just wait for the next train, which is in five minutes.

So, if I see the train is about to depart, I learn from my fellow MRT patrons, and relax. I know another train will be arriving in five minutes. So Confucian. So Dao.

Well, after my relaxing, Daoist walk in the MRT station, I get on the train. It is noon and sunlight permeates the car. I sit down and notice a young family of four sitting on my left. Mother and young son are sitting facing father and toddler daughter, who is standing up on the hard, yellow plastic seat near the window. Her father is turned around, staring blankly toward the back of the car. I wonder about him. What is he thinking about?

The kids are wearing greenish stone amulets around their necks, probably Buddhist, that their parents surely bought to protect them.

A high-pitched sound interrupts announces that the doors are closing, and they do. Suddenly, the train jerks forward and I watch, horrified, as the little girl goes flying head first onto the car floor, which is made of hard rubber. She starts crying, and her mother, with the reflexes of someone who is used to picking up crying little children, quickly collects her.

The mother looks at the father. I imagine that in her head she is saying (in Taiwanese of course): "You're sitting right next to her. She's not supposed to fly head-first onto the floor when the train starts moving, you putz." How do you say putz in Taiwanese?

Mom sends the little girl to her father to care and comfort her. However, father astutely notices that after five seconds, the little girl is still crying. With an air of frustration, he turns the little girl around, and says, "Go, sit over there with your mother."

As if to express solidarity, the boy, who has been sitting next to his mother watching the whole ordeal, gets up to sit next to his Dad. He's smirking a little, as you would expect most seven year-old boys to respond in this situation. Is he smirking because his sister just fell, or because he knows his Dad is a shmuck and is pretending that he's not? Kids are pretty smart, you know.

The girl is now in her mom's lap, and mom is now tending to her daughter, comforting her with words, stroking her forehead. The tears stream down her little face.

I look at the Dad. He still looks upset, which I am pretty sure is just a front for his embarrassment. He is looking away from his wife and his daughter. Not at anything in particular, though, just more looking into space. Thinking of his job, thinking of his next vacation.

I am thinking all of the above, when I begin to feel compassion for this man. I realize that it probably isn't easy being a Dad. Working long hours, telling kids to shut up. No time for the hobbies he loved as a young man, like taekwondo or Chinese chess.

Suddenly, as if someone has just removed the battery to the MP3 player in my brain, my thoughts stop. I notice the mom stroking her daughter's forehead, notice the girl still clinging to her mother, still crying a little.

We pass several stations, and there are no thoughts of shmucks or overworked dads, just paying attention to my surroundings. On a train filled with Taiwanese people in Taiwan. I look outside and see the ugly apartment buildings of Taipei. The doors open. A teenager gets on. An old lady gets on.

Finally, the train stops at Zhongxiao Fuxing, the main transfer station, and the family on my left stand up to get off the train. The mother picks the girl up and gives her to Dad to carry her.

The little girl clings to her Dad, and they step off the train.